TSM Book Club Book #14: Z: A Novel of Zelda Fitzgerald by Therese Anne Fowler

Started: March 21st
Finished: April 5th
TSM Rating: -/5

So this took a while.😅

I full intended to finish this book before the end of March, but it took a while for me to really get into…like over one hundred pages. After finishing it, I’m left with mixed feelings. On one hand, it was well written. On the other it was repetitive.

I was left feeling that, though they ran in very cerebral circles, rubbing elbows with some of the greatest writers and artists of the 20th century, their life lack a lot of substance, although they both seemed to be striving for meaning and value.

This is a fictionalized version of the Fitzgerald marriage as seen through Zelda Fitzgerald’s eyes. Through her view, you see a woman who longs for independence, a little self-worth, and also to be seen as someone of worth by her husband and the world. Through her view, F. Scott Fitzgerald is an emotional, abusive, narcissistic, possibly homosexual, alcoholic who spends beyond his means and can’t get out of his own way.

In reading the acknowledgements at the end, Fowler said that in researching for the book biographers for both were either Team Zelda or Team Scott in the matter of who ruined whom. While reading, I did stop to peruse both their Wiki pages (I know, not always the most reliable source), but it was clear that whomever wrote Scott’s page was Team Scott.

Again, this book is a work of fiction but if I had to choose, I would say neither and both. I think they may both have needed up the way they did anyway. Early in the book, Zelda’s father observes Scott’s excessive drinking and tries to warn his daughter. A warning she doesn’t heed and it comes back to hahbtbher as Scott’s drinking is a point of contention in their marriage. Drinking was always going to be a hindrance for him whether he was married to Zelda or someone else.

As for Zelda, clearly their is a history of mental illness in her family, as he brother also had severe issues with his mental capacity. She continually runs up against the brick wall that is her husband. Who’s to say that a different husband wouldn’t have done the same?

On the flip side, Scott used Zelda as his muse for many of his stories. He took her letters, her life, their life together and turned it into fiction to win himself literary acclaim. For Zelda, she traveled the world and was able to explore her creativity. She learned from literal masters of their craft she likely never would’ve been exposed to had it not been for her marriage to Scott.

I don’t know if it’s our place to take sides in their marriage. Clearly all that mattered to the two of them is that they loved each other enough once not to completely abandon each other, no matter how many slights and hurtful words they said to each other. It seems they hung onto each other because of the deep love they had for each other once. It’s not our place to judge.

Because of that, I don’t have a rating for this book. If you’re interested in a fictional take on the adult life and times of Zelda Fitzgerald, give it a read.

TSM Book Club Book #13: The Neighbor Favor by Kristina Forest

Started: March 15th
Finished: March 21st
TSM Rating: 4/5

I’m a sucker for stories about writers. Anytime I find a book where the protagonist is a writer of some kind, I will always read it because I’m always curious about other peoples point of view about writing, from the process to actually being a writer. It’s just the writer soul in me.

Writing is tertiary and central to Lily and Nick’s story. Their relationship begins with words. Letters written via email to sharing tidbits and secrets, and — between the lines — feelings. Their whole relationship is happenstance. Lily happens to find Nick’s author website. Happenstance brings them back together in New York in real life before either of them actually realizes it.

Eventually that happenstance turns into choices. They continue to choose each other even when they are trying not to. I loved how undeniable their romance feels. Even before they realize that they already know each other, they feel their connection. They feel it without say a word.

Nick’s journey to find his voice as an author again feels tied to his ability to open himself up to Lily, to love her and be loved by her. It’s the same way that Lily’s confidence in herself is tied to it. But no in a co-dependent way. In a way that we all need just one person in our corner, having our back. Even though Lily has her sisters, Iris and Violet — yes, the flower names are purposeful — and her parents, they don’t express the same confidence that Nick does. He tells her all the good things about herself, while he family seems to focus on her flaws or what she’s missing. At one point while reading this, I found myself being thankful that I don’t have sisters. Never once have my brothers tried to set me up because they they I was incapable or finding my own partner. They never tried to set me up at all, but that’s something altogether different.

This was a fun, sexy read. I’m looking forward to the follow up that focuses on Violet!

TSM Book Club Book #12: Day After Night by Anita Diamant

Started: March 7th
Finished: March 15th
TSM Rating: 5/5

When I posted this as book twelve I said that I loved how full and realistic Anita Diamant’s characters are. In each of her novels, the stories focus on the strong connections women make when facing change and adversity. Day After Night was no different and the loyalty that her four main characters — Zorah, Tedi, Leonie, and Shayndel.

Based on a true story, Diamant shares the story of these women who survived one of the most horrific periods of human history. Each woman has their own journey of survival, but it led them all to the same place: the British refugee internment camp, Atlit.

All four women come from different countries and different socio-economic backgrounds. Their binding tie is trauma and survival. While at Atlit they are uncertain of how long they will be there or where they will go once they are permitted to leave. Despite the darkness, trauma, and uncertainty they find other. They advocate for each other, provide emotional support, and bring each other back for the land of the walking dead.

Through their connection, they find that they can find life after living in death. Interestingly, they don’t share the full details of their experiences with each other. They don’t have to in order to understand each other and matter to each other. And isn’t that what friendship is? Finding another soul who you mesh with in spite of — or because of in some cases — where you’ve been and what you’ve been through.

I found myself in tears at the end of this book. It’s not totally clear if the connection lasts beyond their time together, but it is clear that their time together made a lasting impact.

Was this the best of Anita Diamant’s work? No. For me, that was The Red Tent — if you haven’t read it, go get it now, but Day After Night is another look at a period in history that we gloss over: the “after” of the Holocaust. We talk about those who died but not so much about those who survived. This was a beautiful snapshot of that.

TSM Book Club Book #11: Secretly Yours by Tessa Bailey

Started: March 1st
Finished: March 6th
TSM Rating: 5/5

I love Tessa Baily. I read It Happened One Summer and Hook, Line, and Sinkerlast year and loved them — Hook, Line, and Sinker being my fave of the two — then I went back and started reading more of her books. I’m a fan for life.

I really liked this book. I could relate to Hallie’s spiral. When my dad passed in my early 20s, I had this weird, heady feeling for a while where left was right, right was left, and the world was a little dimmer. So after losing her grandmother, Hallie is walking through a fog of bad choices and indecision. She even calls her indecision her “process” when it comes to her work as a gardener.

Julian is the ultimate grump MMC. He hates everything that Hallie represents, but she breaks down his walls anyway. I’ve seen a lot of other reviews reacting negatively to how Julian ogles her body, but to that o say, every man who has every looked at a woman has ogled their body. Physical attraction is part of building relationships.

I’ve also seen criticism of the use of the secret admirer letters. It’s plot device that dies two things: confirms Hallie’s recklessness and allows Julian to soften and see himself through someone else’s eyes. To know that the things he sees as flaws someone else sees as wonderful.

I enjoyed this book, as I’ve enjoyed all of Tessa Bailey’s books. I even enjoyed reading the dirty parts to my husband and watch his fake outrage at basically reading porn.🤣

I’m looking forward to the second book in the series — Unfortunately Yours.